randomness

"'Cool' is more perishable than 'Education' or 'Integrity'." - Jack and Bobby, ep 3.

"YiHua will be a smiley old man" - QJ, i highly doubt that. i tink there's researches bout these sayin tt we actually smile less when we age (which i tot was very real). unless i become senile or crazy, if not i'll prob be a stereotypical "grumpy-old-man" whom ppl perceive as a "old-colour-wolf." and i think Alzheimers is the worst disease anyone can get.

"the most effective learning takes place in a far-from-equilibrium state" - Dr Chew





-i told myself earlier that i'm never going to feel sorri for myself again. but i fear the day will come when the lines between being confident and being smug/condescending/self-righteous/indestructable will fade and i become the largest jackass in the universe. that's a scary thought, especially when i think it's always both parties' fault whenever a mistake occurs. in the situations that've happened so far this past week, i dun think i've done anything wrong. everything was out of goodwill. i guess my biggest weakness lies in being too eager to please, and my constant silliness at wanting to poke into people's business. no wonder my mum use to tell me i like to do 'kaypo'; helping out in sch, stayin back for meetings, etc.

- today, i wondered what it would have been if i were filthy rich. like bath in birds nest kinda rich. alot of things wld have been so much easier. it'd be easier to be cool, cos u have cash aplenty to spend on clothes+accessories+the latest gadgets. u can also feel good about yourself by goin under the knife to restructure anything at all given the technological advances today. you can plant trees and save the island from the worsening effect of the haze. u can adopt a village of African kid AND be on the headlines. and if all these wld make u happy, am i right to say that money can indeed buy happiness? and if i suffer from cancer or Alzheimers, i can donate all of it away, and other people can get their fragments of happiness.

- i dun think i will ever "make it big" one day, if the perception is to have tons of cash, drive a car, have a flight of staircase within ya 4 walls, become a pop star. i'll be one of those kids the immensely rich n proud might snub. i'll be a mini-me in their opinion. but then comes the qns: are the richies hardworking and the poor lazy? or is it Lady Luck's undoing?

-i sound very dollar-oriented today. but i do not have a huge desire for it yet. i just find it alot easier if you can have what u need. true u might not appreciate the hardwork and have that kind of satisfaction to finally achieve what u want. but think of all that u can get instead. and if that kind of extravagance can outweigh the supposed 'satisfaction', den which is beta?

-yes i wana be rich. not bath-in-sharks-fin kinda rich. jus rich within my own world. to be able to live a humble life. able to get my meals and feed my dogs. to get the latest faye wong cd instantly without havein to save. to not feel a pinch when buying a $50 original The Hours poster but feel pain when buying a Volkswagon.

- i feel sad for the guy tt jumped off the tracks.

- i need to exercise liao now tt the haze is gone and i have no more excuses.

- wa lau u luk damn familiar in those glasses i almost fainted.

- i'm told by Dr Chew that we sld all say THANK YOU at everything. when sitting for an exam and given the papers, exhault THANK YOU. for the challenge! for the chance to improve! for the chance to practice and become perfect! THANK YOU!

- how empowering. therefore, THANK YOU!!!