Monday, July 31, 2006

CSSSCA

the annual chalet at Changi organised by dear Mdm Chang was great as usual. it's supposed to be an AGM,but the turnout was disappointing. and so we had a mini-brainstorming session instead. food was great, cept tt there's freakin gazillions ants tt seem to appear out of nowhere. mosquitoes are aplenty too la. wat was significantly missing this year was the lovely sea view+sea breeze and the loudvoices of certain usual suspects like huiwen, lixin, vj, etc.

the night was spent largely on the couch. half of us movie-marathoned till 6.45am, while the other half was upstairs chatting+mahjong. haha....so anyways, we caught
-Legally Blonde 2
-Date Movie
-Wolf Creek
-Zoolander.

LB2 was quite hilarious, the usual chick flick with a lil wit+heart. but Date Movie was a knock out for me! it was hilarious, thou the jokes were largely slapsticky and spoofing on other movies. but it's jus so funny la! esp the opening sequence. haha....yes i'm lame. hee. Jennifer Coolidge is officially one of my fav suppportin comedians cos she's jus ROFLOL.
Wolf Creek was sick sick sick. it's one of those films tt makes u afraid to go out into the world, to trust a stranger's helpin hand, or to go touring in a foreign country. the endless roads, the vast plains, the creepy hideout. everything was so enclosed it's as if the world ended and only the hunted and the hunter are left. it's sick great film.
Zoolander wasnt as terrific as i had expected. nowhere as funny as Dodgeball. i tot it got lost and was beating round the bush too much at times.

so i slept at 7am, woke up at 10am, went home for a quick bath, off to work, and here i am, zonked out as a zombie. grrrrrrrrr....















the brainstorming sesion.















the young ones+1 oldie =P

















the CSSSCA!!! not full strength of cos. the night before...



















.....and the morning after.


as much as everything's all fun and cheery, cant help but feel a lil alienated from my surrounding recently. perhaps it's just me and my wild thoughts. perhaps it's cos everybody's changing, myself included. i ponder the depth of our friendships, and how different we are now. trying to be in each other's lives aint as easy as it seems before.

hopefully Prom will turn out to be the event to bring us together again.

i've had enough of down entries. i need some alone time really. it's been workworkwork this period and i am exhausted. i've stopped reading Entertainment Weekly. imagine that. hopefully becoming part time wef next week will leave me with time to do all that i want before school starts proper. hopefully an exciting life will pop up once school starts. i can already foresee myself getting high from Chippys fish+chip and Fullhouse milk tea before school everyday. yummy.

so ask me out come August. i'll be free most probably.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Dragon Tiger Gate

what a title. a direct translation with nothing left to the imagination. a messy promo poster tt didnt do Donnie Yen(the obvious star of the show) justice with his fist coverin his face, disguising him as Nich Tse. but the movie's not bad.

watched after work with Shawn and Mosquito. Mosq said together we make up S.H.E : Shawn yiHua Ee woon. yikes!? i'm puking from all the SHE replay at my shop. ewww.

back to the film. it's a cheesy martial arts flick la. with tons of CGI and Crouching-Tiger inspired martial arts display. with the usual all-bad-guys-crowd-around-to-get-beaten. and the windstruck hair?! looks terribly generic. Shawn Yue's grey hair didnt do it justice. and i jus realised the striking resemblance between Shawn Yue and Mr Lai Li Qi. unbelievable.

i've nothing much to talk about these days. work's ending and i'll be spending some quality alone time come early August. i'll miss the gang. school's part time, so tt leaves me with plenty of time to find work. relief teaching and Zenitants, hopefully, will keep me busy and rich. rich, most importantly. i have to slog for these few yrs. yea.

Monday, July 24, 2006

what a hot night.

am dead beat rite now. it's been a few days of hard work as we try to get our newly renovated shop up and running for business today. worked till 3am yesterday, slept at 4.45am and woke up at 10am and slogged till now. i didnt even have a proper meal till 10pm. nasi lemak never tasted this delicious.

new signboard. cool eh.



















Ash talkin to AhBing and Shawn bout display.




















the sillys dressin up their off-shoulders. =)
















"if i were a carpenter's son...."















jiahui jiejie!!!



















Shawn fakin a Mark-pose. Mark has a wicked laugh =P




















the poor butterfly's having a bad case of stomach ache. again.




















the man's fixing the speakers. this shot is nice!




















am proud to be part of this whole revamp. and doin it with the gang is a joy amidst all the hassle. Shawn cracks me up all the time. thou 1 yr younger than me, he's experienced a far more charmed life than me. he's street smart and is the life of the party. without him the 3 of us wld have nv gotten this close. without him, i wont be tagged "emo guy". without him there to make me laugh and tell the world to me, i'll prob be much less of a person.

Yiwen the mosquito. she of the butterfly lover and the eternal stomach ache and watever ache. haha. she's like a younger sister to me, cept she's independent as hell. she can tell wat kind of a person u are by lookin at ya eyebrows, whether they're trimmed or not. she's the social victim who has lots of weird-ppl experience tt always had me rollin on the ground. she of the eye lashes, yet looks better without them.

Ash. "actually ashley" started out as the enemy, the outsider. but dear Shawn has rescued her from that. intensely knowledgable in music, she's the supervisor we r blessed with. her strict nature has led us to become who we are today: one who cant stand messy arrangements of stocks, of wrapping cds only when necessary unlike other outlets who wrap everything, one who serves customers to our best ability, and one who does not compromise ugly display. however, if without Shawn to keep me level-headed, i do not think i can tolerate Ash's tempers and straightforward nature. =) but we all love her la.

i have become v attached with my colleagues, these great souls who accept my emo nature, listens to my rant, tolerates my quirks like smelling my rice, and cheering me up when i'm down. they've become indespensible, each of them. as the day i become part-time draws near, i am afraid things might change. i've had a great experience, really. and i love these fellas with all my heart =(

such a wimpy entry. darn. on the other hand, prom is havin me worried. i stuttered when i asked Lixin to become one of my commitee members. for wateva reason i do not know, but this is not a good sign. and havin to coordinate things today at work made me realise i'm still miles away from being a good leader. i put too much work on my shoulders. i am uptight. i dun delegate well enough. i dun have foresight. i lack total understanding of the situation/object. wat i have is fear and apprehension. damn! i need to buck up.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

"where's Andre?!?!?!"

i've been missing out on Project Runway for a while now. and how i pound my heart for tt!!! i've been missing on some great stuff la. yesterday's episode was so funny with Santino's imitation of the whole Tim Gunn situation. "make it work!" and i am soooooo rooting for Daniel, Chloe, and Santino to be at the runway.

Heidi Klum still looks sizzling no matter how pregnant she is. adoring.

Spore Idol this season looks v v promising. definitely a better season than last yr. the stage looks FANTASTIC. the T shape and the mosh pits filled the emptiness of last yr's stage tt more often than not left the performances cold. thou the idols might have lesser stage to work (which might undermine the challenge posed to them), at least it looks better on them too. "hide ya flaws". a perpendicular stage is definitely more runway-xciting. the backdrop is also very flashy. very nice.

and i am really glad they got a decent band this time round. or rather, decent arrangements for the minus-1s. it definitely supported the idols more.

judges. Dick is boring. Florence is the most eloquent and constructive of all. she's sure of wat she's saying, and she never comes across too rude/off-putting. Jacintha speaks in circles all the time. half of wat she says doesnt make any sense. the other half of wat she says, she's imitating Paul 2-Hill's hair. she seems like she doesnt take notes during the performances, cos she seems to be tongue-tied when her turn to comment comes. i expected more from her actually. i tot a classy jazz singer like her will have more style. but she did provide some sass, anti-climax, and dark humour to the panel.

Ken Ken Ken. he has got to be the most irritating part of the show. seriously. he has nothing constructive to say. he is bias when he called Mathilda,Gayle, and Rahima "copycats" and yet told Jonathan tt it was a great performance, when Jonathan was doin sorta like a replica too (to a larger extent IMO). Simon Cowell was honest. Ken Lim is jus being rude for the sake of it. Simon Cowell shushed the audience a couple of times. Ken Lim shuts the audience up all the time it gets irritating and blatently rude. Simon smiles. a smile from Ken wld be like askin Gurmit to stop talkin thruout the show.

thoughts on some contestants.....
Mathilda is THE voice to beat this season. attitude, eloquence, confidence. a risk-taker in song selection( a Bond song?! a Destiny's Child fast number?! and aced it??!!), i hope she goes allllll the way to final 2. i hope she shows more personality thou.

Jonathan Leong!!! i lovelovelove. he's the local version of Chris Daughtry from AI5. cept way cuter and way cooler and smiles way more. i love his deep growl. but he's been pickin songs from singers tt sound like him. next week will be make/break for him. and he's a Political Science student! talkin bout personality AND brains.

Joakim is this season's 1-trick pony. i fell in love with geek in the pink, but he hasnt rise to the occasion since. sigh. but his back-story's touching. it wld be real nice to see him rise to the occasion and be the underdog of the season.

Emilee Kang, terrors or terrors, reminds me of Maia Lee from SI last yr. that look! tt rock thing she did this week with Just Like A Pill!!! tt cringe on her face! the way she moves!!! arrrgggghhhhh@!!!!!! runnnn!!!!!!!
dear Emilee, i hope u return to being a loungey singer, and not be an ah-lian wannabe like Maia. at least u've got talent. and u sounded the most mature in interviews. so pls pls pls. leave the "chicks army guys dig" role to Jasmine.

Gayle was eliminated. how tragic, for Jolin lookalike tt has a good voice to boot. sigh.

Rahima!!! she's the spectacular spectacular this season. the unsuspectin performer who's got gizmos up her sleeves. Attitude, a goosebump inducing vibrato, a sassy version of Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps, and a heartfelt version of I'm With You later, i'm gradually fallin for her. TOP 3 HERE SHE COMES.

not good enough

i do not know if it's solitude. or the incessant thoughts tt intrudes from various places. but i feel like my believes are mere thin air. i no longer know what to believe, what to trust.

not good enough. not good enough. a good son? a good friend? a good person? i no longer believe in any of these supposed claims.

the root of all these....self loathe... is mystifying. it's a pang of dissolution, to know that i might never be good enough. and while u offer the world to me, i have nothing for u in return.

i'm feel lost here. it seems like being myself is not the best advice. i need to getaway. again. probably alone this time. to a place where no one recognises me. tt's another thing i fell in love with HK: no one bothers me. we walk past the bustling streets with even lesser apprehension than strangers. no one judges me. and i hate being judged.

but i guess living in this world comes with its baggages. necessary evil that u cant hide from. i feel like i cant meet anyone's expectations. 21 and i feel i've done nothing to be proud of.

jus not good enough. not for u. not for me. not for anyone.

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

random thoughts

this is the first in a series of random thoughts, just like my previous site.

to start with the most random...














my fav pair of slip-ons is fast degrading to nothingness. the straps are getting torn from too much walking in HK. sigh sigh.


130706
Thursday was my off day. i finally got the chance to go back camp to retrieve my pink ic after a 3 mths hiatus! caught up with the peeps and it was nice to know tt some things still haven change. the surroundings, their dislike for Lady Armstrong, csm and his car with the ALL WISHES MUST COME TRUE decal, seeing Peisiang with his green bag and short haircut, seeing Daren and Zhengshen still the best buddies in the world, how ah ho and the canteen auntie still remembers me and charges me only $2 for my rice. of cos there were changes, like the new BSO and the new OC. but it was a trip down memory lane. i had lunch with Shorn, George, Zhengwei, Ivan(A Spec), and Zhilong.














me, dearest understudy Mr Foo, and Peisiang.
















Darren, me , Zheng shen.

i kinda miss camp life, to tell u the truth. at least for tt few hours i was back. community living is all about friendship and taking care of one another, looking after each other's back. i miss that. i regret not taking my job less seriously, easy come easy go. i could have had more fun. i could have interacted with the gang more. now, i can only hope tt the work i've done paved a smooth road for the gang. somehow nothin on my COP cept "very good" for conduct made me think if it was all worthwhile. i should have handled work and play with more...coolness, for lack of a better word.

i headed for Tanya Chua's showcase + autograph session afterwards.





























i wasnt allowed to snip a picture during the show. there's this woman whom i'm guessin is part of her entourage was so rude when askin us not to take any pictures. she had a hostile and condescending tone. and the NP ushers are rather inapt too. despite the large committee, they were not very audience friendly either.
anyway the show. it was great. she wore yellow heels tt were so attention grabbing. she started with "beautiful love", followed by a set of acoustic numbers beginning with "stranger", which almost had me cryin my eyes out. she made me feel excited bout learnin the guitar again. and after reading bout her on Life!, it's not hard to see tt she's really gettin some serious star factor there. confidence, in another word.

den it was ktv with MJ colleagues + Jiahui



















Shawn tryin Jiahui's QB-esque coat.
















Yiwen the Mosquito and Actually Ashley.

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Saturday. uniSIM orientation. it's a half day thingie. rather boring. went with Zif. it's good to have someone u know in the same course with u. but i'm confused about the place after seeing this..... i dunno whether to worry, or to smile at the "cool" reference.
















i saw a cool cd shop at Shaw Towers!!! they sell clearance stuff, but they have a HUGE collection of old albums! and the prices are even better! $12.90 for a single disc album, $15.90 for double discs albums. i got Patti Smith's Horses album, and Joni Mitchell's Hejira, both of which i've been wanting to get! Patti Smith's album was damn cheap, and the Joni album was hard to find la. i was torn about gettin the Cranberries greatest hits, but i decided not to after burnin my pocket in HK. i'm eating grass now la.

den i went to Bin's recommended cd shop upstairs and found more great stuff tt i want...but no $$$! damn.

i head to Keay's place for movie marathon after that. shopped at Parkway Parade for a while when Keay finally appeared and shocked the hell out of me


he's sportin fashionable long hair and a moustouche. i asked him y he didnt shave and had greasy hair. he said he's tryin to look rugged. i told him "u look like 30 la. not 13". haha...tt bummer's been watching too much dvds!!

so anyway readers pls dun spread this ard. i'll be shot. ironic how my first picture of him alone turned out to be this. haha. so he treated me recommended fried kway teow and dim sum from Marine Parade as promised.

we caught(or rather, I caught. cos he's DOTA-ing for 2 and fell asleep halfway thru the last):
-Shaun of the Dead (quite funny. a spoof on Dawn Of The Dead)
-A History Of Violence (a lil disappointed after all the buzz. William Hurt was only ok. Viggo was good. Maria Bello was good too)
- V for Vendetta (great film! poetic and full of political agenda. thought provokin. the kiss bet Nat and V was freakily funny. V cld have used more body language, thou it might undermine his character as too flashy instead. Nat wasnt great, jus ok.but nice haircut)
-Napolean Dynamite (i initially wanted Date Movie, but Keay recommended this, which i lovelovelove! this is hilarious la! cant help laughin at Napolean even from the beginning. it got a lil monotonous towards the middle, but the final Jamiroqui dance saved the day. haha. )

i slept for only 3 hrs and had to rush to work. it's a zonked out day cos it's the last day of business before we close for renovation. lots of packin and seemingly endless moving of goods. dusty+physically tiring. it's been a while since i've done smthin so physical. we worked till 1.30am before i reach home at 2. the taxi uncle kept talkin to me bout Msia dvds. he even asked if my shop sells blue films.

here's a look.














Shawn posing as some....fighter?!


































Shawn and Ash with the remains.































7-11 supper outside Causeway after a tiring night. random site beneath random lamp-post.

Today
i slept till 12 noon today. and wat bliss i felt. the weather and empty queen-size bed made it all the more sweet. i agreed to Susan's proposal. not of marriage. Susan needs someone taller =). to head this yr's prom tt is. it's gonna be a challenge. i'd prob be faced with tons of stumbling blocks. i jus hope tt in the end, it's a great show. with so much at stake, it scares me. but i felt if there's anytime i can make a difference, this is it. i jus hope the outcome is befitting of this opportunity.

chill out with the MJ gang in town. Cuppage pool was fun. i haven played since...sec school?! haha. but unlike Mosquito, at least i didnt perform suicide by hitting the black ball. haha.















an intentional shot of the mosquito armpit.




















caught. unintentionally. sprawling.





















Shawn. "dead-fish face."
















mosquito. "i told u, u're a rebel!"


and here goes my first official post. a new beginning i hope.

and The Fugees on YouTube is jus driving me crazy. where did all the rappin trios go? there sld be thousands of wannabes following their footsteps when they sound so goooooddd. Lauryn Hill is irrestitable. not to mention, that style! that voice! thou less crisp at the reunion, but still great.

=)

Thursday, July 13, 2006

if u cant see the chinese words, ple do the following:

-right click ya mouse, go to "Encoding"
-select "Unicode"

simple as that.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

林一峰 - 一支烟的时间

每当点起一支烟便想起你
把烟头弹向夜空中没有丝毫留恋
用你不经心表情望着我一笑
那一刻我知道注定难避过一劫

若你点起一支烟会否想谁
是我吧在两个空间做着这相同动作
共你竟可这么近同时那么远
你走后我只有这样怀念你的手

用了一支烟的时间挂念谁
浪费了几分钟的感情计算得到还未算太累
而你似看穿我扮强悍
笑我姿势未纯熟
吸了烟呼出眼泪

让那火机哒的一声把快乐燃点
随着风中翻飞烟圈消散
我亦明白应怎打算
若你此刻点起烟会否想谁

Sunday, July 09, 2006