Wednesday, October 04, 2006

bed of lies.

I watched a JOA episode about "revealing the truth", that your eyes just need to adjust to the lights when you go from being in the dark, into the light. here, light is a metaphor for the truth. Truth here comes in the form of Haylie Duff finding out that the "mother" who brought her up was actually something less than an adopted parent. She was a social-service worker who "stole" a junkie's baby when that junkie failed to provide for the baby(Haylie Duff) and was suffering from an overdose.

Today's episode of Oprah revealed the American Lie, citizens who have been living in a lie. she asked: are you living in a lie? there's this girl who spends all her money on clothes celebrities wear just so she could feel good about herself. Oprah, being a seasoned interviewer, was kind enough not to be too blunt / harsh on her. but the poor girl seems to be really living in a lie. what's worse was she knew it, yet she's living the hell out of it.

it's one too many times for a single day. perhaps it's Providence. and so it got me thinking: am i living in a lie as well? i questioned if i'm trying to emulate someone / something, holding on to something already lost, pretending that all is well when the truth is far from it. my very existance.

sadly, i am.

and i think many of us do so as well to a certain extent. maybe it's a fine line between being idealistic, optimistic, and living-a-lie.

what u can hold on to might not be real. and what's tangible might not be so surreal after all.

hopes and dreams got me too high. i need to stand on firm soil now.

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