"I grieve, and dare not show my discontent
I love, and yet I'm forced to seem to hate
I do yet dare not say I ever meant
I seem stark mute,
yet inwardly do prate.
I am and I'm not
I freeze yet am burned
Since from myself another self I turn.
My care is like my shadow in the sun.
It follows me flying, flies when I pursue it,
stands and lies by me,
does what I have done.
Or let me live with some more sweet content,
Or die.
And so forget what love ere meant." - Helen Mirren, in Elizabeth I